I am still watching but every single episode, I keep thinking about how CT and Diem would be dominating all of this. It was such a joy watching them compete together.
I do think the dynamic of the house changed significantly when Diem and CT left the house.
I'm watching but it's not the same for sure. Plenty of drama as usual but if Diem hadn't gotten sick and they had stayed, I feel like because their relationship was real (whereas so many others were just casual hookups), that they brought heart to the show. I do admit I'm not above enjoying watching the fights and hookups (superficial stuff)....lol...the guilty pleasure things that you wouldn't want to tell your family you like watching....but you need that other side too, that realness and heart, to kind of balance the other stuff out and CT and Diem brought that.
I am still watching but every single episode, I keep thinking about how CT and Diem would be dominating all of this. It was such a joy watching them compete together.
I do think the dynamic of the house changed significantly when Diem and CT left the house.
For sure it did. Something I was thinking about yesterday, when watching the interview of Banany in the Exile house (after they eliminated John and Simone)....I was thinking, CT and Diem would have been so cute doing a little interview from the Exile house and being all excited they get to stay and be in a nice house alone together. Of course CT and Diem probably would have never had to go into Exile but still, that's just what I was thinking about. There were so few interviews with just CT and Diem together that I always wanted even more.
The only ones I can think of are their team interview for the original BOTE and then their team interview for BOTE2, both real short but still amazing to watch. Also watching the interviews of the couples on youtube after a few episodes of BOTE2 had aired, felt like something was missing, CT and Diem's interview.
So I have finally gotten on this site thanks to Semisweet. She rocks.
I have been holding these thoughts to myself for a long time because I couldn't get on here so bear with me.
Diem is such a warrior and such an inspiration. I used present tense on purpose because her spirit encourages others to fight. The way she handled herself though it all will always be a positive source of support for people in the future even though she received her wings. I also believe she continues to live on in everyone she touched, especially those she loved and shared her life with.
On the note of people she shared her life, we need to respect her desire for privacy. We all know who she loved, they know who they are. We all have seen who loved her, and she knew it too. They were all shown in her memorial video. No one needs to worry about titles or statuses. Our opinions do not matter. Each of her loved ones knew their place with and their feelings for Diem. THAT is what truly matters. That should be enough for all of us. I know we all want to know more because we care so much, but it really is not our place. People who do not have nice things to say should keep it to themselves.
As as far as Chris goes, he too has expressed his desire for privacy. For years, he avoided all Diem related questions-even after Duel 1. He only posted one photo of himself with Diem in the hospital. I believe that was done to raise money for Medgift. Let's be honest it wasn't for publicity for himself because he has been completely radio silent. And raising money to help Diem was something she really needed at that time. At the end of the day, no one should ever doubt that Chris truly loved Diem. It was beautiful to watch, even the ugly parts. Thank you Chris and Diem for sharing that with us so openly despite both of your preferences for privacy.
Their relationship was not perfect. That's because it was real. No one has a perfect relationship. They each made mistakes and had their hardships but at the end of the day, they loved each other in the true meaning of the words. They forgave each other for the faults and continued to love and support each other. Every thing else about it is just noise and distraction.
Chris has said multiple times on the shows that he doesn't like to talk about things and talk things out. Diem said in her blogs that after losing her mom, even hearing her name was emotional torture for her for years. After everyone has a chance to express their condolences, we should all try to stop tagging him in every picture of Diem and tagging him with quotes about Diem on twitter. Assuming he comes back to social media someday, if he posts a new picture or post all responses shouldn't be Diem, Diem, Diem.
As someone who has lost a sibling to cancer, I can tell you from experience how unbelievably painful it can be when my brother is brought up unexpectedly. Even after 10 years it can still hurt when I'm caught off guard. The memories are happy and great to talk about but if I had to hear it day in and day out every single day, I don't know how I would have been able to heal. So please keep that in mind when interacting with all of Diem's loved ones. Take your cues from what they are talking about.
And to correct an error, a few pages ago someone transribed messages from the care package box Chris made for Diem on BOTE2. The one attributed to CT is actually from Averey. I suspect that Chris's message was private. It was probably in the card Sarah drew flowers on and had the TAY on the outside. It makes sense that given how he turned the phone off speaker and turned away from the camera that he wouldn't have shown his message on camera.
Finally and most importantly, Medgift. It was Diem's passion and it is her legacy. I hope to see it continue to flourish. If anyone has a contact with their local hospital, consider contacting Medgift and helping creating partnerships with new hospitals. Raising money is only one part of how you can help. Everyone can do something. My brother always said I can't give from my wallet but I can always give of myself- by participating, by giving of my time and by speaking and raising awareness.
Thank you for allowing me to share my feelings and thoughts with you. Fly high angel Diem. We will never let you be forgotten and may your legacy live on after we are all gone.
A hearty welcome SWR! Thank you for the eloquent post. The voice of reason crying out in the darkness. That was very special and much appreciated!
I received my Diem t-shirt from Johnny Bananas today. As I thought about my shirt and Diem, I realized something that I wanted to share. Have you ever noticed how her cast mates's love and respect for Diem is one thing and unifies them? For example, not many of the challengers seem to like Wes. Ct was his rival on Rivals II. What is one thing Ct and Wes have always had in common- love for Diem. Johnny Bananas has always picked on and expressed his annoyance with Cara Maria. Yet, they are the two cast mates that have run huge fundraisers to raise money for MedGift. I'm sure there are a ton more examples, but at the end of the day I think Diem is the glue that bridges a lot of very different people together.
Diem's Rival 2 shirt went for just under $1,300 and her other item is still up for another hour and has aronud $900 which I am going to guess will get up to at least $1000 so this week on ebay they are going to raise around (if not more then $2300)
It looks to me like the person that bought her BOTE shirt and the Rivals II shirt are the same person. Rivals II shirt went for $1294. BOTE went for $1305.
Tonight is just a night i feel like I need to just expresss my feelings so Im sorry if I ramble or if I repeat whats been said a lot. I think it is so great that her family and friends are carrying on her legacy. There wasnt a doubt in my mind that they would be, its just so great to see it actually unfolding. Two months later there is still such a void. Im just a fan from a distance who shared a few tweets and a couple messages with her but I find that I do miss her and her presence. Both instagram and twitter just arent the same without her spunk. She had such a zest for life and determination that was so inspiring.
As I watch this season of the Challege I cant help but feel that she would have done so well and most likely won. I know there was an article that had her saying she was bummed because she felt she had the win. She was never one to back down from a challenge and Im so glad that she always showed such grace and confidence both personally and on mtv (even if she was scared beyond belief). I have watched the first three episodes more times than I can count just to feel her positivity. I am happy with how they decided to edit it and I pray that they can leave it at that and not bring it up at the reunion or in the *** show. Her final words were so inspiring and a a great close.
My thoughts and prayers continue to go out to those who knew her. Im glad that with mtv we will always have a piece of her even if she wasnt always displayed at her best but that just made her human and that much more relatable.
Tonight is just a night i feel like I need to just expresss my feelings so Im sorry if I ramble or if I repeat whats been said a lot. I think it is so great that her family and friends are carrying on her legacy. There wasnt a doubt in my mind that they would be, its just so great to see it actually unfolding. Two months later there is still such a void. Im just a fan from a distance who shared a few tweets and a couple messages with her but I find that I do miss her and her presence. Both instagram and twitter just arent the same without her spunk. She had such a zest for life and determination that was so inspiring.
As I watch this season of the Challege I cant help but feel that she would have done so well and most likely won. I know there was an article that had her saying she was bummed because she felt she had the win. She was never one to back down from a challenge and Im so glad that she always showed such grace and confidence both personally and on mtv (even if she was scared beyond belief). I have watched the first three episodes more times than I can count just to feel her positivity. I am happy with how they decided to edit it and I pray that they can leave it at that and not bring it up at the reunion or in the *** show. Her final words were so inspiring and a a great close.
My thoughts and prayers continue to go out to those who knew her. Im glad that with mtv we will always have a piece of her even if she wasnt always displayed at her best but that just made her human and that much more relatable.
I received my Diem t-shirt from Johnny Bananas today. As I thought about my shirt and Diem, I realized something that I wanted to share. Have you ever noticed how her cast mates's love and respect for Diem is one thing and unifies them? For example, not many of the challengers seem to like Wes. Ct was his rival on Rivals II. What is one thing Ct and Wes have always had in common- love for Diem. Johnny Bananas has always picked on and expressed his annoyance with Cara Maria. Yet, they are the two cast mates that have run huge fundraisers to raise money for MedGift. I'm sure there are a ton more examples, but at the end of the day I think Diem is the glue that bridges a lot of very different people together.
I think your right about this. I received my shirt as well. I love it and I think it's an amazing thing that Johnny is doing.
I'm watching but it's not the same for sure. Plenty of drama as usual but if Diem hadn't gotten sick and they had stayed, I feel like because their relationship was real (whereas so many others were just casual hookups), that they brought heart to the show. I do admit I'm not above enjoying watching the fights and hookups (superficial stuff)....lol...the guilty pleasure things that you wouldn't want to tell your family you like watching....but you need that other side too, that realness and heart, to kind of balance the other stuff out and CT and Diem brought that.
yep!!! You all are all right and seeing ct send home JB ***** *** would've been an a 1
Me, too, Karisa, on all counts! I was thrilled that Sam Smith took a few Grammys this week ~ Diem adored him and we chatted quite a bit about his rendition of "How Will I Know"
I love to see the many ways in which people are remembering DIem! I dont know if this has been posted but, Diem's sister Faith posted this Dance video on youtube. It is very touching and artistic. Watch it if you get a chance.
Since we are sharing videos.... this is my fav... each time I watch it I play it 2 or 3 times in a row. No words need to be said when you watch their faces.
Since we are sharing videos.... this is my fav... each time I watch it I play it 2 or 3 times in a row. No words need to be said when you watch their faces.
I had never seen the second one before! Thanks so much for sharing. Diem was the ultimate definition of happiness in that video.....laughing, smiling, dancing with her friends non-stop. I loved that Cara was with her. I think I definitely will be rewatching this more than once, made me feel better. Diem is just beyond gorgeous and full of life.
Hey all! Found some great pics from Diem's 80's Bday bash on Facebook. If you look up Tarah Healy and go to her photos "Gov Ball NYC 2014 and Diem's 80's bash" you'll see many pics from her bday. She was so radiant and happy. The best is that you'll see CT in a lot of the pics in the background (a couple that were very obvious that they were together). I love that in these photos it looks like Diem is going wild and CT is there to watch over her. He was letting her have her day to shine! Made my heart so happy to see her so vivacious!
Seriously I LOVE to see her so in her element just being her. I truly feel she is the same person no matter the atmosphere and that is such a rare quality.
I also enjoyed seeing both Ct and Bananas. Idk who Tarah is (famous or not) but her picture show all of them (ct diem and Johnny) just having a good time. It wasn't about a tv show or a certain personality. Just them being the friends they actually are, enjoying life. So Tarah, whoever you may be...Thank you for giving us another look at a beautiful soul.
I'm not ashamed to say I'll be creeping on those pics a few more times to feel her presence.
Hey all! Found some great pics from Diem's 80's Bday bash on Facebook. If you look up Tarah Healy and go to her photos "Gov Ball NYC 2014 and Diem's 80's bash" you'll see many pics from her bday. She was so radiant and happy. The best is that you'll see CT in a lot of the pics in the background (a couple that were very obvious that they were together). I love that in these photos it looks like Diem is going wild and CT is there to watch over her. He was letting her have her day to shine! Made my heart so happy to see her so vivacious!
Oh wow, thank you for posting! I had never seen some of those pictures before! I keep on looking at the ones where CT and Johnny are standing next to one another and Johnny is holding the cupcake in a box and it looks like they are about to hand the cupcake to Diem. CT has his phone in hand and he's recording or taking a picture and he has a heart with an arrow drawn on his arm. I was trying to read the word inside the heart, couldn't make it out. Diem really is going crazy and dancing in the pictures and having the time of her life!! Boy she had so much zest for life, so much energy, enthusiasm and happiness. That was really really nice to see. I think about how CT has pictures of her, movies of her, letters they wrote to one another, things like that. I hope they bring him some type of comfort.
I was looking at some more pictures and I caught CT in many more of them, clearly in the background and some where he is right next to her! I keep staring at those!
These are so great to see! It's nice to see some pics I have never seen before because I do searches online and I had thought I had seen everything there was to see at this point. Even though I get a little sad seeing these pictures, I also feel happy. It's weird. It's good seeing how joyful she was about living life and that while she was here she lived it so fully and was so present and just not taking any moment for granted. What struck me as well were the only cast members from the challenge shows that were there were obviously CT (of course) and Johnny Bananas, so just goes to show you how close she was to Johnny Bananas.
I knew Diem and Johnny were friends but I don't think I realized how close of friends until perhaps six months before Diem passed. I remember reading that Johnny went on a ski vacation with Diem and her friends (I want to say early 2014), which at the time came as a surprise to me....not so much a surprise to me now. I loved her friendship with Johnny, just like I love the Chris/Diem relationship. Anyway, not saying because some other MTV cast members were not there that Diem was not close to them....could be they were invited and couldn't make it or could be that some came but just didn't get caught in the pictures....but I'm just saying, the two people right there with the birthday cupcake (who made it a huge priority to be there) were Chris and Johnny Bananas. You can just tell even from the background pictures that Chris is enjoying watching her have the time of her life and he just has this smile on his face like he wouldn't want to be anywhere else. It's so sweet. Anyway, you can see how much all of the MTV cast members loved her (Camila, Cara, Laurel, Aneesa, Wes, Paula).....but you can tell Johnny, like Chris, had a special relationship with Diem.
P.S. Some of the pictures really make me laugh, Diem with all of her funny facial expressions. It also looks like from the pics that she had energy for days! I don't think I could dance around that much and for that long but she just seemed like the energizer bunny. She was truly one of a kind, that's for sure, so unique, so special, never to be forgotten.
Yeah. I looked at them too and it is nice to see her so happy! She was truly in her element when she was on the dance floor; so carefree and vibrant! Its good to know that she was having the time of her life before she passed. She really did live her life to the fullest.
There is another picture that I have been looking for. It is the picture of CT and Diem with the Medgift hats on. It was shown in her memorial video. But someone here said that a friend of CT's posted that picture. I was wondering if anyone knew who the friend was?
Don't know about you guys but I'm having trouble getting into this Challenge. So bittersweet as Diem and CT would have OWNED this one.
I am still watching but every single episode, I keep thinking about how CT and Diem would be dominating all of this. It was such a joy watching them compete together.
I do think the dynamic of the house changed significantly when Diem and CT left the house.
No doubt in my mind that CT & Diem would have won it all. : (
I'm watching but it's not the same for sure. Plenty of drama as usual but if Diem hadn't gotten sick and they had stayed, I feel like because their relationship was real (whereas so many others were just casual hookups), that they brought heart to the show. I do admit I'm not above enjoying watching the fights and hookups (superficial stuff)....lol...the guilty pleasure things that you wouldn't want to tell your family you like watching....but you need that other side too, that realness and heart, to kind of balance the other stuff out and CT and Diem brought that.
For sure it did. Something I was thinking about yesterday, when watching the interview of Banany in the Exile house (after they eliminated John and Simone)....I was thinking, CT and Diem would have been so cute doing a little interview from the Exile house and being all excited they get to stay and be in a nice house alone together.
Of course CT and Diem probably would have never had to go into Exile but still, that's just what I was thinking about. There were so few interviews with just CT and Diem together that I always wanted even more.
The only ones I can think of are their team interview for the original BOTE and then their team interview for BOTE2, both real short but still amazing to watch. Also watching the interviews of the couples on youtube after a few episodes of BOTE2 had aired, felt like something was missing, CT and Diem's interview.
A hearty welcome SWR! Thank you for the eloquent post. The voice of reason crying out in the darkness. That was very special and much appreciated!
http://stopbeingpolite.com/2015/01/19/diem-a-life-in-hairstyles/
I received my Diem t-shirt from Johnny Bananas today. As I thought about my shirt and Diem, I realized something that I wanted to share. Have you ever noticed how her cast mates's love and respect for Diem is one thing and unifies them? For example, not many of the challengers seem to like Wes. Ct was his rival on Rivals II. What is one thing Ct and Wes have always had in common- love for Diem. Johnny Bananas has always picked on and expressed his annoyance with Cara Maria. Yet, they are the two cast mates that have run huge fundraisers to raise money for MedGift. I'm sure there are a ton more examples, but at the end of the day I think Diem is the glue that bridges a lot of very different people together.
Diem's Rival 2 shirt went for just under $1,300 and her other item is still up for another hour and has aronud $900 which I am going to guess will get up to at least $1000 so this week on ebay they are going to raise around (if not more then $2300)
Guantlet 3 shirt.... http://www.ebay.com/usr/diembrown?_trksid=p2047675.l2559
Guantlet 3 shirt.... http://www.ebay.com/usr/diembrown?_trksid=p2047675.l2559
It looks to me like the person that bought her BOTE shirt and the Rivals II shirt are the same person. Rivals II shirt went for $1294. BOTE went for $1305.
Tonight is just a night i feel like I need to just expresss my feelings so Im sorry if I ramble or if I repeat whats been said a lot. I think it is so great that her family and friends are carrying on her legacy. There wasnt a doubt in my mind that they would be, its just so great to see it actually unfolding. Two months later there is still such a void. Im just a fan from a distance who shared a few tweets and a couple messages with her but I find that I do miss her and her presence. Both instagram and twitter just arent the same without her spunk. She had such a zest for life and determination that was so inspiring.
As I watch this season of the Challege I cant help but feel that she would have done so well and most likely won. I know there was an article that had her saying she was bummed because she felt she had the win. She was never one to back down from a challenge and Im so glad that she always showed such grace and confidence both personally and on mtv (even if she was scared beyond belief). I have watched the first three episodes more times than I can count just to feel her positivity. I am happy with how they decided to edit it and I pray that they can leave it at that and not bring it up at the reunion or in the *** show. Her final words were so inspiring and a a great close.
My thoughts and prayers continue to go out to those who knew her. Im glad that with mtv we will always have a piece of her even if she wasnt always displayed at her best but that just made her human and that much more relatable.
I got just my Diem shirt! #DiemStrong
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I think your right about this.
I received my shirt as well. I love it and I think it's an amazing thing that Johnny is doing.
Glad everyone is back to positive talk on here.
I have found myself playing Diem's memorial video and this montage of CT/Diem that I love a lot this week.
yep!!! You all are all right and seeing ct send home JB ***** *** would've been an a 1
Me, too, Karisa, on all counts! I was thrilled that Sam Smith took a few Grammys this week ~ Diem adored him and we chatted quite a bit about his rendition of "How Will I Know"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kwHACITShSI Enjoy!
I love to see the many ways in which people are remembering DIem! I dont know if this has been posted but, Diem's sister Faith posted this Dance video on youtube. It is very touching and artistic. Watch it if you get a chance.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sl32JdDZ3Q
Since we are sharing videos.... this is my fav... each time I watch it I play it 2 or 3 times in a row. No words need to be said when you watch their faces.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zgk1mJezehM
And nothing helped me more then this video the day Diem passed
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8tw7yg6WEQ
I'm still watching, but I'm not into it. It feels kind of...fake. Not that I think it's usually 100% real "reality - LOL.
There's just something very forced about this season.
I don't know if it's since Diem & CT's departure, or it would have felt like this anyway but that's how it feels to me.
I had never seen the second one before! Thanks so much for sharing. Diem was the ultimate definition of happiness in that video.....laughing, smiling, dancing with her friends non-stop. I loved that Cara was with her. I think I definitely will be rewatching this more than once, made me feel better. Diem is just beyond gorgeous and full of life.
Hey all! Found some great pics from Diem's 80's Bday bash on Facebook. If you look up Tarah Healy and go to her photos "Gov Ball NYC 2014 and Diem's 80's bash" you'll see many pics from her bday. She was so radiant and happy. The best is that you'll see CT in a lot of the pics in the background (a couple that were very obvious that they were together). I love that in these photos it looks like Diem is going wild and CT is there to watch over her. He was letting her have her day to shine! Made my heart so happy to see her so vivacious!
Can I like the previous post infinite times!!!
Seriously I LOVE to see her so in her element just being her. I truly feel she is the same person no matter the atmosphere and that is such a rare quality.
I also enjoyed seeing both Ct and Bananas. Idk who Tarah is (famous or not) but her picture show all of them (ct diem and Johnny) just having a good time. It wasn't about a tv show or a certain personality. Just them being the friends they actually are, enjoying life. So Tarah, whoever you may be...Thank you for giving us another look at a beautiful soul.
I'm not ashamed to say I'll be creeping on those pics a few more times to feel her presence.
Those have to be my fav pics! I love that CT was holding the cupcake as she blew out her candle. I'll be going back too!
Oh wow, thank you for posting! I had never seen some of those pictures before! I keep on looking at the ones where CT and Johnny are standing next to one another and Johnny is holding the cupcake in a box and it looks like they are about to hand the cupcake to Diem. CT has his phone in hand and he's recording or taking a picture and he has a heart with an arrow drawn on his arm. I was trying to read the word inside the heart, couldn't make it out. Diem really is going crazy and dancing in the pictures and having the time of her life!! Boy she had so much zest for life, so much energy, enthusiasm and happiness. That was really really nice to see. I think about how CT has pictures of her, movies of her, letters they wrote to one another, things like that. I hope they bring him some type of comfort.
I was looking at some more pictures and I caught CT in many more of them, clearly in the background and some where he is right next to her! I keep staring at those!
These are so great to see! It's nice to see some pics I have never seen before because I do searches online and I had thought I had seen everything there was to see at this point. Even though I get a little sad seeing these pictures, I also feel happy. It's weird. It's good seeing how joyful she was about living life and that while she was here she lived it so fully and was so present and just not taking any moment for granted. What struck me as well were the only cast members from the challenge shows that were there were obviously CT (of course) and Johnny Bananas, so just goes to show you how close she was to Johnny Bananas.
I knew Diem and Johnny were friends but I don't think I realized how close of friends until perhaps six months before Diem passed. I remember reading that Johnny went on a ski vacation with Diem and her friends (I want to say early 2014), which at the time came as a surprise to me....not so much a surprise to me now. I loved her friendship with Johnny, just like I love the Chris/Diem relationship. Anyway, not saying because some other MTV cast members were not there that Diem was not close to them....could be they were invited and couldn't make it or could be that some came but just didn't get caught in the pictures....but I'm just saying, the two people right there with the birthday cupcake (who made it a huge priority to be there) were Chris and Johnny Bananas. You can just tell even from the background pictures that Chris is enjoying watching her have the time of her life and he just has this smile on his face like he wouldn't want to be anywhere else. It's so sweet. Anyway, you can see how much all of the MTV cast members loved her (Camila, Cara, Laurel, Aneesa, Wes, Paula).....but you can tell Johnny, like Chris, had a special relationship with Diem.
P.S. Some of the pictures really make me laugh, Diem with all of her funny facial expressions. It also looks like from the pics that she had energy for days! I don't think I could dance around that much and for that long but she just seemed like the energizer bunny.
She was truly one of a kind, that's for sure, so unique, so special, never to be forgotten.
Yeah. I looked at them too and it is nice to see her so happy! She was truly in her element when she was on the dance floor; so carefree and vibrant! Its good to know that she was having the time of her life before she passed. She really did live her life to the fullest.
There is another picture that I have been looking for. It is the picture of CT and Diem with the Medgift hats on. It was shown in her memorial video. But someone here said that a friend of CT's posted that picture. I was wondering if anyone knew who the friend was?
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